Life

Everyday is learning french.
It is surprising how much time it can take from you when you are learning a language, or just something new.
Today, I have finally posted a few posts for Johan on his blog about the restaurants we went to in Paris. I do not know why it took me such a long time to write them, since Johan has been nagging about it so much. I just have to feel like doing something for me to do them.

Got a message from a friend yesterday on facebook. She said my life is perfect. Is it? It probably is, although I have my anxieties and uncertainties. I am not working and am learning French full-time. I can also have fun full-time too, since my husband is being so nice to me and is encouraging me to have fun. But why do I feel so guilty when I am having fun? Somehow I feel like we should all be working and contribute in some sense. This is my Asian side speaking, since we are all brought up that way. It is also my dad speaking because his philosophy is 吃得苦中苦，方為人上人。(loosely translated as : the more suffering you can take, the better you are as a person). So having-fun is simply not the right kind of life goal.

But I also remember Johan once told me the meaing of life is to have fun. That was new to me, and still is a bit. Of course I am evolving all the time I spent in Europe with all the people I meet; life can be in thousands of ways. I guess not working is one of them. The bizzare thing is, I do not really fit into any of the following groups: housewife (no, I feel a lot more free than that), students (well, technically I am not), employee (definitely not!), mom (well, I don't have kids yet). I guess one category I fit into is this one: being loved. I am being loved and am trying to experience new things. I thought going abroad was a brave new move, but there is actually so many news things I haven't tried, and it is also new life styles I am taking on. How lucky I am!

J'ai la chance, oui?